Corona Diaries

Aubrey “I just want to feel free. Very much still on the corona-coaster”

Background Information Female, Aged 18-24, Student, West Midlands

March – First Diary Entry It was my lovely friend Amelia’s birthday was on the 21st of March, so it’s was so confusing and hard to know what to do that day. All of her original plans to go and see a show in London were cancelled, and our other close friend had gone back home to see her mum for mother’s day, as everyone was getting anxious and we knew things were changing. She’s eating cake from a box, brought in the Jewellery Quarter, where she then walked over an hour and a half to come and meet me in a park. I then really needed the toilet, but all the toilets were closed! The park was busy because it was the first proper sunny day of the year.

Amelia then told me she was going back to her flat to have a take-away (where she would be on her own). I felt so awful, and the rules at this point were significantly more subjective, perhaps wrongly – I went back to her flat with her and we ordered a Wagamamas, which is our favourite food. She wanted to do some painting, so we both painted pictures of daffodils. I wrote ‘coronavirus hell’ whilst laughing.

On Sunday the 22nd of March, I saw my friends for the last time. I’d actually gone for a walk on my own, and at the end I approached my house and I couldn’t bring myself to go in. My housemate had been crying so much about going back to France in the emergency, I was upset because it was mother’s day and I my mum is in Ireland. So I carried on up to the park and bought myself a little fizzy drink at the corner shop. Then my friend Jamal at the back of the photo made me jump, he was with another friend and saw me. He was laughing for ages at how I had been sitting under a tree, just listening to music and drinking my drink. And then the friend Anja on the left was also out on a walk with her housemate. So we all just stayed, making jokes about being 2m apart.

Some students at my uni set up a food bank in one of the student accommodations near me. I’m part of the whatsapp group, and I contribute either financially or by helping where I can. This photo shows some of the food donated and was sent on that whatsapp group.

I found this in my screenshots from Instagram over that week, and I think I was trying so hard to process everything, that when I saw this it just helped a little bit. It made me feel like suddenly all of our priorities had completely changed. I had a chaotic and most unpleasant night. I’d just lost all three of my housemates, who’d returned to Barbados, Spain and France literally one day after each other. My landlord really kindly agreed that my sister could stay with me – and she won’t even charge any rent. I almost cried when I got that message. Monday the 23rd, I was having a facetime with my friend, where we paused to watch Boris Johnson’s speech. It was so scary because he said immediately everything was in place, we were effectively in lock down. I had told my sister that I

thought it was about to happen earlier in the day, she didn’t believe me – and then unfortunately it came true! I told her to jump on the train. In the meantime, someone came to the front door and in the chaos, I opened it. He was really shifty, and I ended up having to ring the police – two other houses were burgled that day/ evening. I wouldn’t ever want to relive that day.

My sister was looking happy, she’s realised that she gets fed home cooked meals every single day! She told me that this is like ‘the Ritz’.

My sister packed the ‘essentials’ in her big bag, I laughed that these were brought – we literally won’t be going anywhere more exciting than Aldi or the park for the foreseeable, but at least she will smell nice! I went to the shops for the first time since the lock down. It was not fun, people looked so anxious in the shops, and I had another realisation that lots of things had changed. After going to Aldi, I remembered I had wanted some ice lollies (not essential) and a few things that Aldi didn’t have from the little Tesco. When I was in there, the person at the till was stepping away and I wasn’t allowed beyond a certain point at all at the till. They gave out free flowers, these were worth £10. I took this picture at the top of the hill on the way to my house, 15 minutes in. I looked around and realised I have to walk this journey with bags, once a week for quite a long time – I normally get the bus.

There is a running joke with friends, after a knee operation last year – a physio mistook me for a ‘returning professional athlete with a specialism in netball’. So I got on the sports gear, took a ball outside and got my sister to take A picture so I could send it in the group chat. My sister said she didn’t want to join me every day for these work outs – it’s exhausting!

I’ve lived on the same road, in two different houses – for just under three years. Each summer, I take a picture with a fab, on the first sunny day of the year – sometimes I caption it Instagram something like ‘having a fab time’. So I took this for this years one – it doesn’t look any different to the others, but everything is not normal.

I went for a walk on Sunday (29th of March) and took this of the canals. My work is to the right of the picture, the uni to the left. We walked through campus and it was beautiful, but campus is now completely closed off so I had no idea it was my last walk through for a while.

By the time I got back from that walk on Sunday, I felt deflated from everything. I chatted to a friend over messages, and she suggested I paint something. I painted this, and felt so much better at the end. I added in my favourite quote that gets me through any hard times, and stuck it on the window.

My friends and I also tried Houseparty, it was an app we could all talk over, it was really funny, we were all laughing and was something I think we’ll try and do every week.

April 2020 April 1st 2020 Dear diary, Today was overall good. Is such a strange time, and I can't get my head round how I'm able to dance and laugh around the kitchen with my sister, at the same time as I read today that there were almost 600 deaths, and lecturer from university died. But it's hard to keep focusing on the pain, when I look at my phone or the news too much, it gets me really down. I feel like I'm really finding the groove, and not as bored as I was at this point last week. This morning I did work, I work from 9 to 1, it's my part time job after uni. It's still super strange, as I was only there for two weeks, so two mornings before corona began. It is a bit tough asking questions so remotely. I feel like in person is a lot easier. I am starting to find I can speak much more freely on things like Zoom and Whatsapp. Before, it was something I did occasionally, now it is something I do every day. At 11 – I rang the care home to speak to Gramy. She was so funny, telling me about her friends and telling me how good it is to have friends. I still feel awful I never rang her more – she lives in Ireland, before this outbreak. I tell her about my plans to bake shortbread. Then, I saw on the Whatsapp group that someone had left a donation on our road for the temporary food bank for those in student accommodation. So we went to pick it up. If I’m honest, there are two very different types of leaving home at the moment. The first is where is for a walk, this is where I know that I won't touch anything, and I can keep distance. Other is when I go out with things or to the supermarket, I bring one of my two hand santiers. That instantly makes me feel more anxious. The food is left in porch, it's so bizarre was the so much more of community spirit and feel since all this started. Some cars were parked with drivers in it, I felt anxious because my friend said there are unarmed police around the area. I tried to look more normal, but I'm actually doing nothing wrong. Social distancing is hard on the paths, I started taking slightly more seriously since people from my uni are getting sick, the Midlands keeps being eluded as a hotspot. I delivered the food to the food bank, I have a little chat with the girl organising it. Then me and my sister walked back to the park. I got back home on bake the shortbread, as usual. The oven baked there too quickly, what should have taken 50 minutes, took 20! My sister loved them. Then my old housemate started messaging me about a deposit from the landlord. I feel weird and bad, my landlord has explained how financially strange she is calmer and if she hasn't held anyone to their contracts but doesn’t know if she will return the deposits. She has been so good to me and let my sister stay for free. Then cooked a bit of dinner – Kelsey is still absolutely loving all this home cooked food! The boy I used to nanny when he was 3 or 4, he is now turning 9. He rang me yesterday over Whatsapp, as I offered to teach him a bit of piano. He rang again tonight, and we laughed so much! He’s now mastered ‘do your ears hang low’ and started camp town races. Yesterday, his mum thanked me for spending time with him, my sister

said after, you can hear in his voice how much he had missed me. I’m glad its cheering him up. I had an awful summer last year, where I lost where I was living and had a knee operation. I stayed with them, and he cheered me up so much. I think we are both lifting each other’s spirits. I am tired tonight, me and Kelsey found a few songs we haven’t heard for years – it was so funny! We danced in the kitchen until we couldn’t anymore! It’s such a weird time, I’m actually loving having my sister here, it feels like we got given back a mixture of our childhood/teenage years! Absolutely anything goes, ordered chalks for outside, and a badminton set. If all set against a backdrop of chaos in the ‘real world’ – which was much more concerning last week than now. Going shopping in the morning need to absolutely psych myself up. I am shopping for some elderly neighbours too. One of their requests are 14 bananas!! I have never met them, they live on another road, it was all through their son on Facebook. I am hoping to the guy from uni who I was seeing a lot before this all began – we might try and go shopping at the same time. That makes me realise how weird it’s all got – two week ago, he was taking me to a restaurant in the city centre, we were buying bubble tea and laughing. Now, I’ll be over the moon if I see him in Aldi car park, 2m away!! Over and out, Aubrey x 2nd of April 2020 Today was definitely a mixed bag. I woke up in the night several times, feeling too hot – dreaming that I was coughing lots- then waking up and not knowing if I was really coughing. I got ready to go to the shops. I told Jamal (the guy I was sort of seeing before), what time I was going to be at Aldi last night. He said it was far too early. But this morning at 8.30 – he messaged me and was just leaving. I couldn’t believe it, walking to Aldi- this is the first human that I actually know, who I am seeing for nearly two weeks. The queue at Aldi was insane – about 40 minutes where we stood apart in the queue. I didn’t have a pound coin – we got told to try and not use cash as it’s not hygienic. Jamal brought a pound so I could use a trolley – romance, not dead! We chatted the whole way through the queue, it was bizarre with people so far spaced out, and some with makeshift masks. When I got into the shop, it felt weird, people still looked scared, and then some people still really invade personal space. In the queue, Jamal said the sense of panic here, was much more than in Japan. He said that there isn’t much to be concerned about, but I keep seeing stuff everywhere. At the same time, he said he ‘wasn’t sure’ how his parents would be, who are over 60. I kept saying they would be fine, but it makes me feel sick, I don’t actually know if they would be fine. I got the shopping for the elderly people, so funny getting those 14 bananas. I found everything apart from lemons. In the car park, Gran – the 75 year old, was waiting with his car boot open. He came out and said he wouldn’t get any closer, and asked me to put the shopping in bags. It felt good to help, he thanked me for the kindness and said next week I can let them know what time suits. I felt sad too – it actually feels sort of like rejection? When everyone slides away from you, or we can’t get too close.

I was busy trying to hand sanitise, not touch my face even though my hair is long an d kept blowing. Jamal stepped in and helped when the bag split, and transferred stuff over. Then the police came in a massive van, looking at everyone suspiciously in the car park. I felt constantly on edge, when. They are there, like suddenly, am I a criminal because my friend is helping with my shopping? As I walk home, I feel happy I saw Jamal – but also sad. It made me realise how weird, and frustrating the situation is. I don’t want anyone to become ill and diei, because of me. But also, I miss my friends and the simplicity of doing what I want. Just a simple idea of having a meal at a friends house, which I used to do almost every week, now feels alien to me. I felt anger even, that I want my old normal life back. I saw a blue, plastic glove rolling down the High Street today. Which was deserted. It was like a tumbleweed. When I got home, I was exhausted for stop carrying all those bags back home was exhausting, and top it all off I'd seen a squashed dead rat on the way home, and I hate rats! I tried to find comfy clothes to get in, but none were really washed. So I just got back into my pyjamas. I went back to bed for awhile, tired and not wanting to do anything. Then Jaden, the boy used to look after, facetimed me again. It instantly cheered me up. Even his teenage sister wanted to join in, and learn a few tunes. Undercutting the whole day, really bleak stories I saw on BBC News, more deaths, more people who are young, a no seeming hope! I forgot to mention, my aunt (who is basically my mum), rang me and my sister. My cousin, who I saw a few weeks ago is 1. He kept grabbing the phone and kissing and cuddling it, and I feel heartbroken I probably won't see him in real life as a one-year-old again, his birthday is in July. We clapped for the NHS tonight, and everyone is helping at the moment. The boy I used to look after clapped over FaceTime, he was stood outside on his own on the doorstep clap in. Melted my heart! So it’s been another weird day – here’s to another one tomorrow? Friday 3rd April Dear diary, Today was nicer. I stayed in bed until 11:30 this morning, just being lazier and not wanting to rush. Then I had lunch in the garden with my sister. The oven still keeps playing up, so I made my sister laugh about how it sees me coming! It completely burned my lunch today. Then I went for a walk to my favourite place, I've decided to save it just for Friday as a treat. It was busier today, just making social distance more of a headache. It was pretty though, and just knowing the spring and summer is coming, despite all this weirdness, was nice. Then I made a veggie lasagne for dinner which was nice. Jamal and I facetimed, he didn't understand this mask update we had from the uni, about PGT masters. I didn't really understand it either, but I did my best of the decode a bit. Then we just had a laugh it was good to forget about corona for a while. After dinner, we were supposed to have a quiz night with a person called Kimberley, who's basically my ‘uni mummy’ since I've lived here and used to work together, and her daughter. But they are very much on the frontline, Kimberley is teaching and her daughter Emma is a nurse. They asked to rearrange to tomorrow. So we (my sister and I) got out the piano for some more duets, which was funny. I

then really fancied cake, I am basically turning into a snack at this stage, so I made a cake in a mug. It didn't taste good! I'm tired again tonight, I was waking lots in the night, definitely processing this in a weird way what's going on! But the day was calmer, and my sister said tonight that she's actually enjoying this time, despite corona. And even though my life looks totally different just a couple of weeks ago, I still feel quite happy! Bye for now, Aubrey xxx Sunday 5th April Dear diary, The weekends feel strange of me at the moment. I used to have some slow weekends before, but never this slow! I think I always saw at least one friend, did something I love. Yesterday, I baked cinnamon rolls, which took a long time from start to finish! Kelsey had asked for them, and they actually tasted nice. I went for a really long walk yesterday in the morning, as I knew it was going to be sunny yesterday, and there's so much shaming and drama all over social media about being outside. I actually feel sad for people who are living in flats at the moment. And worried about the link people seem to be making between rising death levels and the presence of people in parks. Having lived in an inner city flat for two years, account imaginal harder is being cooped up right now. In the evening, a parcel arrived from Berlin, from and auntie with recently connected too. It was full of sweets and fun things. It gave us a laugh and a lot of fun. I've taken to sometimes putting on increased humour sort of act, certain things I keep repeating of making my sister laugh, and we tend to enter crazy hour in the evening. Today, it was slower start again compared to the week. I had eggy bread. Then I read a book outside in the sun but it was not as sunny as we were promised! It was still nice though then I tried to clear some of the leaves in the garden, and a clear the table and chairs outside. I caught up with a friend of a FaceTime this afternoon which was fun. She is always positive, so it was lovely to speak to her. Me and my sister had dinner in the garden. Over dinner, I brought up that I've heard scurrying in the bathroom, my sister had to. I feel a most is in their house might not be what we need at the moment. I didn't go for a walk today, so this was the first full day I have had at home completely since this all began. I was feeling tired yesterday and I think that's because I had such long walks everyday! This evening it was the queen’s speech, which for some reason made me cry. I don't know why, as it wouldn't have really expected that. But hearing her say it's painful separation from friends and family, struck a chord. Then she reference Vera Lynn, saying ‘we will meet again’ and this week the man who lives next door, played that loudly on one of the evenings. It’s positive too, life will get better again, a nd there are definitely positives to be able to stay at home and slow down at the moment. I'm very excited for the day I see my friends and family again. Love, Aubrey. 6th of April Dear diary, Today was awful funny! I woke up feeling quite stressed, last night me and my sister laid out flow on some of the parts of the floor near the openings of walls and gaps between cupboards because of that strange noise in the ceiling. This morning, there was no tracks through the flower but the noise was back louder. There was scary and across the floor, and my sister and I shared a horrifying look when we realise that a mouse wouldn't be that quiet. I messaged the landlord, who said her husband would come out that day. I

went to the shops. Another eerie trip to the ghost town, which is becoming quite normal. But this time, I noticed and felt move a sense of unease. In the park, the bins were overflowing with bottles and packets, spilling onto the floor. In the High Street, I saw something in what can only be described as a hazmat suit, completed with a mask. Looking like it was from the war. It was so bizarre. This is the same place I've been for years, and some days I struggle to get my head around it. In the shop, I heard man say into the checkout man that he had told off this Chinese girl that was standing too close to the girls stacking in shelves. It was weird, hearing that kind of statement so loudly, and I feel like things are radicalised at the moment. Everyone I passed walking to drop off a fool bit of shopping for the older family I'm looking out for, looked fed up, one old man stopped and looked like he couldn't continue with his shopping. But when I came home, there was better news comma the mouse or rat was suspected bird - and later this was confirmed. We live in the bird to make a nest and have called her Vera. I felt like don't know when I've not got a deal with a rodent problem in the middle of corona. We had dinner in the garden, everything was slow and then we put up the badminton after my workout. It was funny, even though we lost a shuttlecock over the hedge already! I came back to my room happy, but then saw the news that Boris has gone to intensive care. This has really struck a chord. He wouldn't have been my choice in Prime Minister, but he's the leader and I feel really unsettled and worried. Perhaps also because every other case has been quite separated and distant. And his age is the same as my parents. On FaceTime with a friend though, I realise how fortunate I am to have access to green space. She's not seen any green as she lives completely in a city centre since lockdown began. I feel bad for her, as green space and those tiny packets of freedom is what is keeping me sane at the moment. Tomorrow on Wednesday a more structured, I'm working from home. But excited to play badminton after work tomorrow! Bye for now, Aubrey xx 8th of April Dear diary, The past couple of days have been like so many since lockdown began, mixed. Yesterday I had work in the morning, which I found tough, because I had only started that job soon before the lockdown began. I went for a really long walk yesterday afternoon and after spending some time at the weekend saying how I didn't think we should be so unkind to people we assume aren’t social distancing, I definitely saw a lot of people not social distancing. Groups were sat having a drink, playing football in the park, all similar ages. It made me sad, as I haven't seen a friend, apart from Jamal at Aldi, since this began. By the evening, I was spending time catching up with friends online after dinner. We've been eating dinner outside every evening. It’s so strange it is normally really loud with cars and people. But now, it's so quiet you can just hear the birds. Yesterday, I also listened to a podcast by George Ezra called ‘phone a friend’ on my walk, I think it's really helped because they were talking about their experience of lockdown with each other, and laughing about zoom or house party. But also made me a bit sad, thinking of how others are completely on their own. I feel so lucky to have my sister here. Today, work was very busy in the morning, I'm off next week and had a lot of loose ends to tie before then. After work, I walked to Cadbury Park because I thought it would be quieter, it was nice not to have to constantly think about the two-metre thing, because there were just less people around. Then I came home and tried to do my university work. I'm really, really struggling to concentrate on it all. Then just as I sat down, I found out I was rejected from some funding for a PhD. But ironically, I've been hoping for this rejection, as it means I get to start a PhD in September, as I want an internal scholarship. I also won something at Bright Side University, to study modern slavery. Bright Side is

so pretty, but River Lane is my home. But a lot of my friends are really struggling in terms of teaching the end of masters at a time of crisis like this. Especially as it feels like for all our teenage lives in university, we've known austerity. We've paid thousands in fees, and now I see my friends panicking. I did another workout in the garden tonight and discovered the sunflower I planted the other day and started to grow! I think for context of how slow life is, that's probably the most exciting thing to happen! Tomorrow is shopping day. I feel like today, I've kept so busy and crept into a corona bubble. I'm not ready for it all. Jamal said he'll be there in the queue again to have a chat, asking when I'll get there this week. I'm shopping for the old people again too. My next door neighbour, the one that plays Vera Lynn, stop me outside today and thanked me for the note I passed through the door few weeks ago, where I said I could do the shopping. See you tomorrow, Aubrey xxx PS Kelsey lost all three of the shuttlecocks playing badminton, can't believe it haha! 9th of April Dear Diary, shopping was awful again really! I was feeling anxious about it, there's still so much to remember, so many rules and is just so different however shop before. I struggled to go round the shop in a straight walk, add into the looks I get, I have dyspraxia which means I often drop things or I'm not organised in a conventional way. I dropped my phone several times in the floor, and a one point I just wanted to leave. But Jamal came and met me in the queue again. It was good to see him even if I was frustrated it at every part of the trip! The old couple on the 95 year old I've been shopping for were very grateful today. It's often hard to don't know exactly what they want, but they said I did a fab job today. Last night, my friend messaged to ask if I might be OK if she moves in with me soon. The flat mate may go back home, as she is no longer working on as a special needs teacher. And my friend doesn't want to stay in the flat alone or go back to her home. I told her she always had a home with me, no matter what happens. It made me feel emotional, everything feels so suspended in this spree of silent distress at the moment because of coronavirus. This evening, I made salmon and veggies, and the replacement badminton balls arrived, along with kids set of balls. When I had a few minutes to myself, it felt gorgeous in the sun. The parallels between loving a slower pace and all the sunshine and hobbies is just against what's going on in the world, and that feels heavy. Only at a few points in the day do I not feel as though those thoughts are lingering in the background. Perhaps because my UK looks so completely different right now, I was scrolling through pictures on my phone, and found one of me and my friends in the library being silly. It was from the 2nd o f March, that world are my life then was absolutely different in every way call my housemates, job, university, friends and general life - to what it is now. Having said that, I'm getting very excited for the week off now, I think I feel happy in the garden, some gone trying go on early morning walks, and just enjoy some time off. Love, Aubrey xx 14th of April Dear diary, So, so, so done with all this now. Whatever novelty there was before, the ‘oh actually have more time’ or ‘oh yeah, can do that’ has been replaced with a massive dose of reality. My stomach started playing up last Thursday night, I was up on most all night, and spent the next day with headache. By Sunday, I had a very light cough with a funny chest, I think caused by my stomach, as I've had issues in the past. So because I

had a cough, however much I think is not related, I've had to isolate for a week, and my sister for two weeks. Me and my sister not getting on as well, we argued yesterday. Basically, tensions are fraying, people are becoming done with it. I just took the bins out, and considered making an actual run for it, where I'd go, I don't know! Speaking to my friends is the current lifeline, especially as everyone empathises. My friend has asked if I want to have launched it with her over FaceTime tomorrow. My friend that I used to live with went shopping for me today, and dropped it off my door. Even though this level of isolation is rubbish, it was nice to not have to tackle the shops this week. I am so grateful for friends that would do that for me, it's so kind! My eyes hurt today from how much TV I've watched. I don't have the energy or mental strength to do much more. Although I did 5000 steps on the garden which was definitely good for exercise, but also left feeling like a caged animal! Easter was nice thought, I made a toast, and we did an Easter egg hunt. It's a rollercoaster at the moment, I see-saw between being OK and not and sometimes, I like today, I don't want to do very much at all. Ready for all this to be over, me and my friends have been saying all the places we want to visit. I just want to feel free. 17th of April Dear diary, Very much still on the corona-coaster. Last couple of days have really lacked energy. It is super hard to hear that lockdown as extended, even though everyone knew it would happen. In the speech yesterday, they kept emphasising ‘that here is a light at the end of the tunnel’. Whilst I definitely agree, there is, is hard to actually motivate yourself through this when you don't know if things get back to normal in a few months, or years time. Yesterday I sunbathed in the garden for a lot of the day, reading my book. I've also been walking laps of the garden, mega excited about my extra freedom when I isolation ends on the weekend! I randomly made change cheese scones today, just because I fancied a snack. I also deep cleaned the bathroom and it was so nice to do stuff I didn't involve looking at a screen. Tonight it was a house party catch up on the app, I found it hard because my friends all seem more positive this week and are getting on with it. It made me feel like I'm the only one finding it more tough at the moment. And all the while I know I'm not anywhere near in the worse situation compared to lots of others. Things are still not great with my sister, it's a tense atmosphere, which I think doesn't add to my overall enjoyment at the moment. I feel almost selfish to admit, I don't really want this to carry on, and I want life to go back to normal. But tomorrow, I've decided trial a much tighter schedule, even though it's the weekend I'm still a part of my week off. I've looked in my phone notes, an hour by hour list of what I want to do and when. I already feel conflicted, as even when life was normal, I would never be structured. It may not work, but I want to see if it helps some of the health blast feelings at the moment. I've also today, had a resurgence of interest in my head about my masters dissertation, which makes me feel like taking this week off - however fortunate in some aspects, has paid off because that motivation wasn't there! The nicest part of the last few days has been the sun, I've been listening to amazing podcasts and I am enjoying my book. I've also at times, enjoyed the calm of not going out and being subject to the judgement there is at the moment. I let you know how my routine day goes tomorrow. Aubrey xxx

No Answer But Hope I stay between my own four walls Because ill, none of us should fall The silence is deafening Has the world stopped? Looking up at the sky Searching for reasons why I lie in my garden, But the sky is empty No planes going anywhere, I can't find my answers there. Are we going to win this fight? I find myself reaching out Asking my friends at points of despair But I find no answers there. Sometimes tensions are wrought Feelings of being trapped At times I feel calm Then that's swapped with alarm Of rising deaths Growing unease A sea of uncertainty Crashes around me I'm asking, what's next? But I can't find the answers I find myself wishing it's done Mourning for the life that had only begun I find myself asking my family when We will all be together again? Whilst I don't find these answers there, I know I will find them, someday, somewhere.

I Want To See You I want to see you Hear the familiar words you gave I want to be with you Feel the warmth I crave I want to see you Know that the world is right To sip hot drinks To dance all night I want to see you Eating our favourite food Watching films we thought Would be good I want to see you Watch your head tilt back Hear the laughter See your smile crack I want to see you Wrap my arms around you Feel the hug I'm longing for When all is over I want to see you Know everything is just fine.